haish
Sunday, September 25, 2005
with ♥ 9:30 PM
yikes. time passes so fast. im nt done studyin my sci!! sighx. i LOATHE exams. so darn tiring. sighxx. and blah blah blah, todae was e same usual boring routine. hmph.jus wen i tot i could finally talk 2 you.. jus wen i tot i could @ least know you still love me.. jus wen i tot u care.. u shattered my hart again; u made e tears fall..i told myself id be strong. yet, i cry myself 2 sleep every nite.. yet, i dream e same dream every nite tt make mi wake up cryin in e middle of e nite.. im stuck @ square one. smone save me..all bcuz of those interferrin sods.=jinghui=
sianx
Saturday, September 24, 2005
with ♥ 10:06 PM
been some time since i blogged. life still as bad.. sighx.. it hurts so much e way he look @ me.. so cold..i wan 2 turn back time.. 2 e times where his eyes were so full of love wen he looked @ me.. nw.. he see mi he walk away.. or another direction.. he dun even noe how much tt hurts.. i doubt he eva noe..todae.. dad's company had organized some stupid stuff. duck tour, den go sentosa 4 dinner n musical fountain. duck tour quite amusing n new.. sentosa.. saix. e food sux. and musical fountain full le. sighx.. so wadeva. all e kids tere so young. onli teen tere. sorta. listened mp3 literally whole day till no batt. sighx. wadeva.daniel kor.. hee. condemned to roll in e mud le. wahaha. bt NO FAIR. u army go taiwan still can SHOP??!! wat the. hmph. aint fair. humpfx. i dun care. i wan u 2 buy sth fer mi n charlie. heh. and CHARLIE.... kor u owe mi loads of things. hmph....exams comin. im still slackin. ugh. tis sux. i LOATHE studyin. yawns.now im standin in e cold, everything's said n doneatomic winter in my soul, from e absence of e sune onli remedy i noe, ish i gotta let u go... here i am, here i am..=jinghui=
wadeva,
Sunday, September 18, 2005
with ♥ 9:28 PM
exams r round e corner le.. sighx. study study study. tts annoyin. and eat mooncakes till so full...^^. so nice. raffles hotel n goodwood park de mooncake rox lor. gourmet one oso nice. wa. sho full. smiles. life's bout e same. sho whatever. nvm tt. tears ive cried can fill a river or sth. haish. aniwae..charlie ah.....4 god sake, kor, nxt time u take photo in army rite, can u lyk tie a ribbon smwhere or sth so tt i noe tts you? smiles.. u ppl look e same lor. i bet wit u derrick wun look e same. ha. feelin beaten? get his autograph and everythin 4 mi. u hear me? hmph.. im still waitin!!aiyah. yawn. go sleep le. dead tired. id do ath jus 2 be wit u again... naive? i tink so.=jinghui=
wadeva
Saturday, September 10, 2005
with ♥ 9:37 PM
sighx. 2dae... wake up...eat breakfast den went out shoppin le. sianx. sad. nv find e earrings i wan. hmph. den..went plaza market cafe 4 buffet. sho DARN full. i mean...my parents sat tere frm 1230 to 4???! jus cuz buffet ish frm 1230 to 4. haish. so eat n eat n eat. bt e food damn nice. wahaha. i gained 0.5kg. nvm. go gym tml. smiles. den came home...bathe...do hw. piano. den im here. saix lor. cant wait 4 sch 2 reopen.. yawns. im sho bored @ home. tml stay @ home whole dae AGAIN. onli can go downstairs gym. ugh. im goin 2 be a study freak lorx. haish....y wld 2 ppl so terribly in love contemplate splittin w/o one more go @ it...? perhaps bcuz...i reasoned tt one of 'em was more terribly in love than e other...n if a partnership is 2 work smoothly, e love has got 2 be equal...is it..? sighx...=jinghui=
haish
Friday, September 09, 2005
with ♥ 9:13 PM
i wan 2 hide frm e world. snuggle under my blankie. hibernate or sth. haish..i dun wan 2 face e truth tt i would nv be wit u...=(well. last nite after logged off watched "The Maid" wit my parents. mum fwen bought dvd. scary parts dad asked mi close eyes [he watch b4 le] and wahaha. alot of amusing parts lorx. giggles. so funny. bt arrgh. i accidently saw one part where e ghost came out. freaked mi out. din sleep well last nite lorx. hmph. sighx..aniwaes. 2dae. saix. jus as boring. stayed @ home. do hsework [ugh] and study. PLAIN boring. haish. wadeva. sighxx. *yawns* hafta write testimonials AGAIN. cheryl chung ar...aiyos....haish.....fine. write den write. and im SHO BORED. cant wait till tml. where im finally FREE~ and can go shoppin and THEN buffet. wahaha. who cares abt tt kg gained. e most i work double hard @ gym. [tt is, if i got e time. hee.] yawn yawn.'sighx. im stuck in a dilemma. im confused. i dunno wat 2 do..=jinghui=
....
Thursday, September 08, 2005
with ♥ 9:44 PM
everything u do, jus hurts... jus simply hurts sho much i dunno wat 2 do... i wish i knew wat u r thinkin...wat u r doin...sighx...and wad do u treat me as.. do i realli mean sho little 2 you? sigh.... =jinghui=
love me.
with ♥ 9:34 PM
love me... dun let me let you go... get 2 close 2 tt sm1 special...it hurts alot wen they walk away.... in my hart of hearts... i'd go ath jus 2 be in ur arms again... shi wo yong gan tai jiu....=jinghui=
sighx
with ♥ 9:09 PM
well. thursdae. stayed home e whole dae...saix....and ah zhong, chiat yi they all go escape theme park TODAE!!! no fair! humpfxz...-.-"... yst went chinese swimmin club thingy. took taxi 2 n fro bt thank god alot of ppl share cost. nvm e details, bt went mac 4 a while wit my cuzzie after we reached AMK central. smiles. bt sianxx....jus cuz i went out yst i cant go out TML!!! arrgh. sad sad. sighx. aniwaes. giggles. cheryl go cut hair todae. wonder how she look lyk now. giggles. sho amusing. ^^. and charlie!!!! smiles. you? roll in shit? giggles. i cant believe u go army so soon promoted, muz be too gd @ rollin in shit. giggles. charlie and e shit factory; SHO CUTE!!! hees. aniwaes kor.. YAYS! claps claps claps. congrats worx. bt dun kip "kill, kill, kill" la...aiyos....army DUN teach u liddat de okies. dun sing those barbaric songs. wadeva songs u r talkin abt. ugh. [figured my enteries r sho colourful till i dunno wat colour 2 put. hees.] oh!! daniel promoted oso?? sergent or officer?! yays!!! wahaha..=) kors jia you worxx..!! ^^. and charlie....DUN BE SHO MEAN!!! wat buay tahan!! all i said was take pic of derrick or sth...giggles i cant believe he might go into ur company!!!! *giggles* tis ish sho exciting...and ur platoon sgt ish sho mean. loathe him. humpfxz!!! wat make derrick 4eva cant sing. hmph. will haf RETRIBUTION de okies. hmph. aniwaes........okie larx. type alot le. time 2 go write all e bloodie testimonials 4 ppl who haf been chasin after mi wit chopper. *exaggerated sigh* im sorry. i realli am. im sry i cant be perfect. im sorry i din tink of ur feelings. bt haf ya eva tot 4 mi..whies r u doin tis 2 mi...u dunno how much my hart ish bleedin..@ all...=jinghui=
,haish
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
with ♥ 9:01 PM
u noe wat. i was tinkin throughout e dae 2dae...i guess...im nt in his life anymore. im jus someone in e crowd. he's lookin.. bt lookin 4 sm1 else 2 love; nt me anymore...ish tis e cruel fact i realli hafta face? can i nt face it? can i live in denial...? sighx.... tere r onli a few more chances 2 see if he has forgotten mi. time'd tell. if only....sighx.... i tot we were eternity. you said we were. nth'd tear us apart. u lied..=jinghui=
haish
Monday, September 05, 2005
with ♥ 9:40 PM
wat can i sae. holidaes. stuck @ home doin nth. fed up wit msgin. seems lyk i kip nv receive msges or sth. im SHO PISSED off already. wadeva. tournament. dunno la. see reenx. i dunno lahx.......im tired out. off 2 bed soon. tml'd be jus another boring dae........maybe thurs things will be slightly betta. cant wait, mel. =). thankie 4 cheerin mi up. loveya mel. hartbroken. =jimghui=
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Sunday, September 04, 2005
with ♥ 9:32 PM
i dunno wat has gotten into mi aniwaes. and darn. everything ish sho messed up. study. study. study. im sho tired. sighx. dunno larx. goin offline call reenx. and i gif up. i msged n msged n msged him. he nv reply. sighx. Ghost of you..ish all tt i haf left...=jinghui=
sighh
Saturday, September 03, 2005
with ♥ 10:36 PM
oh god. sm1 save me...went out 2dae...saw sho many couples. tt horrid feelin back again...sighx...i dun understand...jus wen i realli tot he was The One...jus wen all e sweet times finally started...fate jus decided it was time to interfere...it jus aint fair...whies do sm ppl get 2 be wit e one they love for their whole life? whies do tis hafta happen, wen he was all i eva wanted...? i wan him back in my arms...tts wat im breathing 4... god noes ive tried bt i cant let go...im crazy abt you...im sry 4 needin you...i realli am...i dunno wat 2 do..im torn....i noe what im supposed 2 do....everyone has been sayin n sayin...[n elisa, thanks bt no thanks. i dun nid matchmaking frm u again. smiles.] bt...sighs...i jus cant bring myself to...i wan 2 put up a strong fight..i wun gif up till im realli tired...sighx...or..am i? haish...and my parents r drivin mi nuts. studies. piano. nw they ANNOYIN me wit e issue of guzhen. if i HATE music. its thanks 2 them. and how sweet of my guzhen tch 2 tink so highly of me and wan mi 2 take grade 6 nxt yr. i mean. wow. ive onli played for 2 yrs in pri sch, and tis yr den took up again? oh well. dunno larx. im sho annoyed. pissed off. and either starhub has prob or sth. i msg him sho darn freakin many times he nv receive/reply. last nite same thing happened. grr. sighx. wat he msg i oso nv receive.... arrgh. im goin nutsy. i'd better start forcin myself 2 listen 2 deb they all and my mum. and oh god. can ya believe it. my mum see mi liddat.. she ish thinkin of matchmakin mi wit her best fwen's son. i mean. oh god. im nt suitable 4 him lorx. they are SHO darn rich they live @ orchard tere. antiques evrywhere in their hse. they r jus darn rich. and i mean.. i NV TALK @ HIM b4. he's lyk, NATIONAL rugby player? note e word national. he go US compete de can. lata i accidently bump into him onli he throw mi onto e floor how?> *GASP* or worse, his arm drop out? oh god. im so gonna change my mum's mind. and sighx. i wish ppl can jus stop matchmakin mi. ELISA. i mean YOU. thankie vy much, i noe ish amusin 2 u bt i dun wan matchmakin. okies? hugs. i THINK i noe wat im doing.and i dun wan 2 be wit another again. tt soon.sighx. i jus hope heavens noe wat he's doin. *crosses fingers* wishin everything ish jus a nighmare that'd pass by quickly... i cant imagine him wit another. i realli cant. does he even noe wat im feelin...? does he even care..? "na wu xian de shang tong; yi han... wei she me dang shi mei zhen xi? mei dang ta zou guo.. xin, hao xiang you chong xin puo sui le..."i miss the times we had 2geda. e sweet memories. e times we argued n teased. e times we quarreled. e times we jus sat tere and gazed @ one another. e times we went out. e hugs. e kisses. and...i jus miss you....can you see my silent tears...?=jinghui=
if onli
with ♥ 11:35 AM
if onli. u noe wat im feelin... if onli...u'd try ur best....if onli.. u noe how much i love you... =jinghui=
haish
with ♥ 11:20 AM
well...life's e same. darn wei lian become superstar. thank goodness kelly oso got contract.. a BETTER contract. wahaha. hope junyang n derrick both haf too.... and wahaha. biao di's bdae 2dae. happi bdae!! and well. still liddat. i guess. tere are sho many bloodie misunderstandings. too many 2 clear them all. sighx. i guess.. i cant help it. i cant help believing in shit hope...or nt being able 2 let go...reenx..deb...im sry bt i aint as strong as u two...im much more..lets see. emotional? i dunno larx. i cant let go. maybe cuz i dun tink i wan to too. i guess. juz let fate takes its own course. juz wishin evrything will be e same again...maybe, i shldnt haf been sho strong in e 1st place. whies held on...i wun haf end up liddat. bt..haish. i dunno. im lost. i shld heed all my fwenx advice. move on. bt it seems im rooted. i still love him. wat ppl sae...i juz cant bring myself 2 do it... and i tot i was strong. i told myself i hated him. i told myself im pickin up again. i TOT i did it. i guess. i was wrong. i can even bring myself 2 hate him. i realli cant. i guess...tis is wat i get 4 being sho emotional...4 being so naive... for..loving whole-heartedly....my results sux. so dun ask. mp3 confiscated by mum. wadeva. dunno larx. life juz sux. juz wen i tot i haf a perfect life. haish. juz hafta study lyk hell nw. or else..im realli sho screwed. i hate holidaes.=jinghui=
